sentimental week (:

i'm back!~

i told you i'll be back .

see? i kept my promise (:

okayys . i've got sooooooooooooooo many things to say.

soooooooooo many thoughts & feelings to share ..

the past week had been a sentimental week for me .

well, actually not just the past week, inclusive of today .

i said, sentimental, and maybe a little emotional (:

but but! i didn't cry, not even a single tear :D

alrighty!~

let's start with the most recent one .

firstly, i would like to thank someone special .

the one who was there when i needed someone .

the one who was there when i was stranded with strangers .

the one who constantly reminds me to be a lil` more glam .

[ i think you can infer that this person is SUPER naggy right ? :D ]

the one who came to my rescue by bringing my 'secret weapon' *wink* :D

the one who was there when others were staring at me .

[ although no actions, at least someone was there! :D ]

okay . i can't think of anymore lers .

let's make it known to everyone .

is .. my dear ..

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JIETING! :D

tricked, huh ? gotcha! :D

yeah, we went to Mr Mike Teo's wedding last saturday .

just the two of us & four sec four girls . [lols, four sec four :D]

erm, please don't be mistaken .

it's not that Mr Teo only invited us .

just that got two seats empty, & our class have been pestering him to let us go,

so he smsed me on saturday morning, 07:19 AM!

he said he asked his other classes ler, but no one can make it ..

so .. yeah .

it was great fun attending a teacher's wedding!~

i mean, it's my first time . (:

jieting & i sat with a bunch of super-funny adults .

mr teo's friends . not only were they funny, they were QUITE evil .

haha, they mixed a three-in-one + egg alcoholic drink for mr teo & his wife,

but then his buddies helped him, in the end he only drank half a cup .

hahahahaha ! the best thing is he couldn't even stand still lars .

i guess it was really strong, he didn't even answer us when we asked him about the formula of the area of triangle . good luck mr teo! :D

last thursday was insane for me .

i suffered hell, for a moment i thought i was going to faint .

it was my GASTRIC ATTACK -.-

super painful can . i tell you, it was the worst of all .

i was in westmall with huisian ..

& then we saw a super long queue in subway,

so huisian suggested to go look for my uncle before coming back .

who knows! the queue was longer when we went back -____-

it was already 1.45pm & i've not eaten anything for the entire day .

i was already feeling a lil` dizzy when we were on mrt,

& what was worse was that my vision was kind of blurred when i was in school .

yet i didn't think much of it .

huisian said it was probably because i slept too late the previous night .

who would have known that it was actually gastric!

& i didn't bring my pills out! ):

geesh, huisian got to quickly finish her meal,

abandon my drinks, carry my things, & flagged a taxi to accompany me home .

i almost vomited in the taxi & the lift .

the taxi-uncle was yakking all the way can!

i'm already feeling very uncomfortable ler, ultra-dizzy .

yet he kept asking questions and complaining about his daughter .

i mean, i understand that he was being friendly & such ..

but then, couldn't he sense the urgency?

anyway, once back home . i went straight to my bed & i couldn't get up after that .

she went to get lunch for her brother & made porridge for me .

thanks girl :D

now here comes the emotional part ..

i wouldn't want to be saying everything single thing out here ..

i mean, people who know me should know i hate people to take pity on me .

just that, i've been feeling very heartbroken .

after witnessing so much .

she's like that . you're also like that .

i know i shouldn't be saying all these, just that i had enough .

the both of you . please, stop .

i don't know if it's the pressure that you're given, & that you have no where to take it out on,

but . must you treat him this way ? surely there are better ways to solve the problem ..

i know i'm just a kid & i have absolutely no rights to tell you what to do .

i don't really understand how you both are feeling, i'm not up to where you are now .

but i just hope you both can be a little forgiving and less calculative for now .

now that this has happened, can't you guys be a little .. magnanimous ?

save the arguing for later, don't you think we should stand together to give the other him our support?

he seems so strong, he doesn't want us to worry .

he thinks he can handle this on his own .

do you really think so ? i bet he must be feeling damn helpless .

he's not saying anything . he's a guy . he has his pride and his ego .

i think all he wants is for us to support him & some peace .

and for her . don't you think she is super stressed out ?

can't you feel it ? my heart breaks whenever i see her like that .

you people say it's only words that i contribute,

that i don't go over to accompany her ..

don't you people ever realise, when she was all alone,

stuck between them, i was there ?

you don't see it because you weren't there ..

she's the one that suffers the most .

that's not all .

i get scolded & accused when i was purely trying to help .

i feel that you should reflect ..

i mean, i do say things that i regret sometimes too ..

& i understand that you were super pissed at that moment ..

but you've hurt me .

that's a fact that will not change .

not only me, and her too .

for so many freaking months we have been stuck in these turmoil,

we told ourselves to keep the harmony & not get affected,

we told ourselves to stay united no matter what .

now look, what the hell is happening ?

when will life get better for us ?

i attended a social gathering a few days ago,

and i realised that actually ..

some adults are far way more careless with their words than us .

they too, do loose talk .

maybe it's because it's us (kids) that they are facing,

that they are talking too, so they don't really think much of us ..

you know, you don't really have to be so formal with a kid .

but . it's at the expense of my impression of them .

well, maybe it's worthless .

i mean, my impression of them . lols .

but oh well, for goodness' sake, just hold your tongue .

you may never know if you will meet this person again .

he/she may be your boss, you may need him/her to do you a big favour .

you know what i mean ?

i admit, i do say things that i regret sometimes .

sometimes, i don't hold my tongue .

so i take this chance to apologise .

sorry to all that i may have offended in the past .

i know i'm straightforward and crude .

i'm really sorry .. i realised it's really ugly now ..

now . to the papers .

i just read about people in some countries who included whale meat curry in their lunchboxes.

please, whales are endangered creatures .

these people are hopelessly cruel .

i mean, shark's fin is cruel enough .

imagine someone cuts your nose & throw you into the sea & let you die there .

although it makes a really good dish, it's still inhumane . to me .

i've tried it when i was young & i loved it loads .

but ever since i saw the documentary on how people kill sharks for their fins,

i stopped . totally .

there are times where i wanted to eat .

but images of red, bloody sea remained fresh in my mind .

i'm often asked by people, " please la, don't be stupid, you think you can make a difference? they already killed the sharks . "

i believe i can . so don't question me anymore .

i'm not forcing people to follow suit, my family can have shark's fin soup in front of me,

i'll just keep quiet . but from time to time, i'll do my part to brainwash them .

and my family has accepted me .

so when the entire family has accepted me for what i am doing,

i don't see why you can't .

i get really pissed if you ask me to eat .

or psycho me to eat . or TRICK me into eating ANYTHING RELATED TO SHARKS .

especially shark's bone soup .

i'm not dumb . you get me ?

sorry for being so offensive, i just dont like it when my views are not respected .

back to topic . now whales & sharks . even hitting seals has become a sport for sickos .

next time what ? the gentle little dolphins ?

it's not that i'm noble, i do eat meat .

i only feel that we should protect the endangered .

it's not like the whales are breeding like the chickens, is it ?

okayy . after being so emotional ..

now some happy stuff (:

was just flipping through the papers,

and i read about the news of a couple who are in their sixties & seventies ..

restaging their wedding to commemorate their 5oth anniversary .

once again, they were walking down the aisle .

it's just so sweet . haha .

i begin to realise .. and coming up with MY definition of true love .

last time people asked, what's love? or rather what's true love?

i too, asked myself . what's the definition of true love?

i couldn't find the answer, so i told myself .

there ain't any definition for true love .

it's such something you can't describe .

well, now after reading the article [ & a couple of dramas :X ]

i can .

I feel that;

True love is when you've found someone you can grow old with,

the one who holds your hand when you are fat & wrinkled, and say you're beautiful .

The one who makes your walk down the aisle an eternity .

[PS: it wasn't in the article, and it wasn't copied . (: ]

yes, jie**** says i'm super long-winded .

and i agree . see ? i told you .

many many many thoughts and feelings .

& i just realised it's 12:01 AM . lols .

good night, maybe morning to all .

hope you have a great day ahead <3