yawns

hi people, i havent been posting i know. and for those ppl who keep complaining and asking me to post, here i am posting. first, i'm currently typing a DAMN long post, so just wait okie? second, i'm very sian and tired+lazy to post and also i didnt want to affect ppl's mood bcos as u can see, the tone i'm using is a DAMN sian tone. i've not been feeling well.... been resting on bed since last night...(ok lah, just now went out lah but for a while only and also bcos yesterday went too wild liao) i also dont wish to share this sucky life of mine with everyone cos it really suks. for those ppl i confide in, thank you for lending me ur precious ears and shoulder to lean on.(yar, crybaby means crybaby) [can say it's mood swing lar] i have no idea why the memories keep coming back and i dont want them to. i tried all ways, cant help. i tried to be a friend, i tried to still keep this friendship of ours. but it takes two hands to clap. so, i'm gonna do it the hard way. (dont blame me, u asked for it.) last time i didnt wanna listen to my frens and do this cos i still had some hope.....but since.....i got no choice. ok, enough of this later people say i long-winded. the BOREDOM IS KILLING ME!!! i'm going CRAZY!!! why am i staying at home everyday, studying so hard?!!! so bored.... going bonkers soon if i dont go out. ok, i'll stop rejecting gatherings.... i'll just go for one tomorrow(or shld i go for the one on friday? since i missed today's and yesterday's....wadeva.) people, i'm coming!! just a few hours of play wont kill. enough. my reading time is here. harry potter, here i come!! (reading it for the second time, i'm crazy indeed.) buaix.


(this part is for some people who keep saying i changed i changed.for people who has been very kind to me, dun bother to read.bcos dis is the rude side of me.) listen up.my life sux to the fullest. i admit. i'm not a strong girl and dont expect me to be one.i'm fragile and will be fragile. i'm not gonna change for anybody(though i said that i'll try to be strong.) i'm hurt, yes i am. but i'm not alone. i'll try to be the girl you know, still as cheerful and wilful, i promise. but it takes time. give me some time can? i cant promise if i'm as wild and energetic as before. i'll be still be a crybaby, for that, i am very sure it wont change. [sorry if i hurt any of my loved ones bcos of the BIG change in me.....i really didnt mean to. ]