sad. )=

i'm very sad now. yes, i am. really. disappointed also. haiix. what should i do now? cant really say what happened. cos' i dont wish to elaborate. i just want my smile back. can't seem to smile now. sorry jieting, and germain. pulled both your mood down because of me. i'm really reflecting. is it my fault? am i really like that? but i am already doing something. apparently DEF isn't observant enough. this is a negative post. please. stop reading. i just need somewhere to let it all out. i don't want to pull any of you nice souls out there reading my blog.. feel so heartbroken can? as in really la. ( please note that it has totally NOTHING to do with BGR, seriously ) heartbroken because it's unfair. told myself not to cry, cos' i don't want to look like as if i'm trying to win sympathy. but. even a superwoman has times when she feels like crying, whats more i am not one. help.. i'm feeling so sad. yet i still have to put on a smile to face DEF. cos' i don't want DEF to worry, or feel that i'm trying to win sympathy, am a crybaby. i'm suffering. save me.